Dieter's High

I am now on day 4 of my quest to better health and weight loss. I've been meatless for 4 days and this is my first day gluten free as well. Right now I'm experiencing that "dieter's high". You know, when you start a new diet and it's all new and exciting. I'm finding all kinds of cool things I can eat and it's fun which makes it easy. Since I fed my son, Bear gluten-free (GF) for 3 years I know all the good GF foods I can enjoy. I'm finding foregoing meat and gluten is not too restricting. When I add dairy in a couple of days that will be challenging. I'm absoluting dreading giving up sugar and I'm honestly scared to give up caffine. But that's why I'm doing this, right? So I control food instead of it controlling me.

I would love to rid myself of this albatross that has been around my neck since my late teens. the albatross being extra weight on my body and an addiction to food. I had a friend when we lived in Arizona who had actually "recovered" from a food addiction. She had weighed 280 at her heaviest but when I knew her she was 125 and had maintained that weight for over 3 years. She felt like she had control over food. She said she hardly thought about food anymore much less obsessed on it. When she was hungry she ate, whatever she felt like eating and stopped when she was full. She had lost that fear that many of us have when you go to a resturaunt or even sit down at your own dinner table and you are totally freaked that you are going to overeat (again) and feel horribly guilty later (not to mention bloated). I must admit I was compeletly jealous of her. Not just the trim little figure she had but the freedom to just eat when you are hungry. I don't what I crave more the smaller body or the peace of mind.

Honestly, I want the peace of mind that I'm being good to myself. And I want the freedom to think about other things besides what's my next meal. I'm continuing to pray for God's help in all this beacuse I haven't a clue how to solve this problem.