Update

As you may (or may not) have noticed I have been MIA on my blog since Tuesday. Well, it's been a rough week. The boys are "off-track" this month which means they are out of school for the month of May. Our local schools are on a year round schedule so for every 8-12 weeks of school the kids have a 4-6 week break off. Just this week I've noticed a pattern for our off-track time. When the boys have a school break we all do great for the first 2 weeks. I have a lot of energy and take them to do fun things, play games with them and get most of my housework done. However, I don't get much time to myself to re-coop. So it makes sense when on week 3 it all seems to go to the dogs. The boys get bored and start getting on each others nerves and fighting. Bear's autistic behavior always worsens without tons of input. Baby Girl starts to show signs that she misses having me all to herself during the day and becomes whiny and also starts tantruming a bit more. I become exhausted from being Super Mom 24/7 and start craving alone time like I need air to breathe. The house goes to pot and so do I (I literally crumpled to the floor in tears Wednesday night after getting the kids in bed). DH comes home to a bitchy wife, whiny kids and PB & J for dinner. It just ain't a pretty sight.

I haven't totally decided what to do with this realization yet to make our next school break one that doesn't crash and burn after 2 weeks. I have some ideas like pace myself on our next break. However, for now I have taken a deep breath, let go of my high expectations for each day and am in survival mode. I am not fretting about the house, just gotta keep it sanitary. The kids might watch a little too much TV so I can keep my sanity. I may buy some "easy to make meals" and not stress about making a big dinner at the end of each day. Just gotta relax and get us through the next week with our spirits intact. Caring for our hearts and minds is more important than whether or not the house is dusted. We just have to get through next week and the boys go back to school. Whew! After I re-coop a bit I'll try to make a plan so our next time off is a better one.

My blogging may be hit and miss until then. Stay tuned...........